Hate Chart

When you see it compiled like this, it really shows how extensive their resentment is

Artemis timeline

 I'm so excited about this

Dating deadends

 These "men" are exhausting. I had a couple of hot prospects on the app this week. I gave them my number, even though I'm always reluctant to do that because I don't like getting unsolicited dick pics. But they seemed genuine so I thought I'd take a chance.

One guy was very interested in getting together and then I just stopped hearing from him, which is the most common situation I get, where they just stop responding for no reason that I can discern, after they've been so eager to get my number (this has happened repeatedly and I've heard other women complain about this).

The other guy sent me several long messages and 17 pictures from the work he's doing (bizarrely he included a screenshot of his app receipt). 

Then he says he's going to bed, and then he gets mad because I didn't answer (cuz he said he was going to bed) and sent me a long rant about how he can't get any "compliance" on these apps. Hard pass.

So yet again my weekend is completely free🫤

 

Just ew

I can't even imagine why an elderly guy thinks having a picture of woman's ass taken in this sneaky way is the appropriate profile photo for a dating site (tell me you're a predatory asshole without telling me you're a predatory asshole)

Mondayest Monday

The only thing that makes this less aggravating is that I have glass coverage from my insurance company, with no deductible (and they have a direct link on the website to the local glass replacement company, so I have an appt tomorrow).

As far as I can tell, I lost $20 that I kept in the console for emergencies, a $10 gas card I got from the vaccine trial, and about $6 or $7 worth of quarters that I literally was thinking this weekend I should bring into the house. And, what probably led to them to break in: a big tray of cookies and brownies left over from the Superbowl party that I planning to take into work today. :\

 

Crumbs from the money gods

 The money gods are smiling for a change. Well, they're tossing me a little bone. I'm kind of freaking out about money right now. The back child support is ending this year, Alana's tuition needs to be paid, Cal's student loan which I offered to pay (I didn't realize it would take 3 more years) is weighing on my mind, Alana's graduation in May is gonna cost me a bundle, and this fucking shower repair. Then I got a call today from the Pfizer trial which I had contacted online, saying there is a trial in KCMO with Moderna, $450 for 6 months. Yes please! It doesn't balance out the bigger expenses, but it's moving in the right direction.

Grief and love

 Anderson Cooper is hosting a new podcast about grief and I heard him say during an interview

"Fall in love with the thing you wish had never  happened."

Wow, I have been cogitating on that since I heard it.

Then I was listening to Ken Burns being interviewed on NPR about his Revolutionary War series and he was talking about his mother dying when he was 11 and how everything he has accomplished has essentially been due to that. And I thought, damn, he fell in love with the thing he wished had never happened.

It takes so much self love and self knowledge to achieve this, but I really want to be a person who can be that evolved and wise...