Local death is making me think

Wow, just found out that a local woman died on Monday by slipping getting out of the shower and hitting her head on the marble sink edge.  She was 61. Of course it is shocking and super sad. But she also happened to be a big community macher, who gave lots of money to Jewish causes and was on tons of Boards and so on.  I'm sad for her family, but also really jealous that she left such a wonderful legacy. I wish I had enough money to donate to all the organizations that matter to me, and I wish I had the time to devote to them as well.  And I wish I had the kind of personality that she had, so that everyone who met me thought I was lovely and delightful. But I have none of those, and will never be held in that kind of esteem. Just add that to my ongoing existential crisis.