Day 5

Today I sent obituaries to the Flagstaff and Tucson newspapers. I talked to the Special Uses Coordinator about scattering cremains in the Coronado National Forest (they neither issue permits for, nor "condone," this activity). I left a message at Heichal Ba-oranim, the synagogue in Flagstaff. Over the weekend, I spoke to several old friends. I got more messages on Facebook and on this blog. Rather than making Noah's death seem more real, all of this makes it seems more surreal. Outside the sun is shining. On the way home from work, I have to stop at the store and get deli meat for the kids' lunches. Life goes on, and meanwhile, the gaping hole in the universe that was my baby brother remains.